What does being non-binary mean to you?

I use it as an umbrella term. All of my labels are: non-binary, queer, neurodiverse. Using these terms allows me to put a name to who I am while still having room to explore my identity. I know there are more specific labels out there, but I don’t want to use any of those. I need the space to move around.

How do you see your neurodiversity in relation to your queerness, or vice versa?

I feel like the way my brain works effects how I see everything else–my perception of my gender shifts because everything does. But my brain also can’t understand gender as being just masculine or feminine, or even androgynous. Sometimes I feel like the best representation of my gender at any given time is best measured by a color. Some days I”m a deep blue, others I’m more of a lavender. Some days I’m an infrared or ultraviolet color, I can’t even tell. I just know that my gender is both moving and constant. My sexuality is a lot like that too.

I know I could use terms like genderfluid or abrosexual or panromantic to define my experiences, but they still feel too restricting, and my brain doesn’t like that.